today i m so moody when i wake up...

recently i'm oways worry bout tis problem...
my younger bro is actually not yet mature or mayb tat is his style...
begin from tis year... i feel like i'm totally lost the connection with him although he is jus bside me...
i'm so hard to communicate with him for tis year.. wat i say or wat my mum say.. he wil not agree n start argue dy.. although tat is jus a small arguement.. but b4 tis... he din do tat u know?

he is 14 years old for tis year...
i know tat a lot of guy or gal oso willing go to KL n buy some clothes izit?
reason: 1) various type of choice
2) not tat expensive compare with kuantan here
but tis time i go to KL... i actually dun have tat nice trip...
23rd v reach KL.. then go to sg. wang.. i ask him follow us lar.. coz i think sometimes he may see some shirt which he like ma... then he straight away gv me a "dark" face... show me how he bu shuang to shopping with us...ok fine.. i diam diam lar.. dun wan bother him.. then i saw a shop sell a lot of Rm15 shirt.. then i ask him go n c c lar.. he show me the face again..then i ask him go n c c lar.. otherwise u wont have shirt to waer for next year.. then he go n c c...

then he choose a sut.. Rm69.90
wah.. so expensive dy leh.. coz no jenama de nia...
but then.. my mum oso pay to him wat...
then he dun wan choose for the t-shirt dy.. ok lo...
after tat i ask him go to c another shop...

"i dun wan.. u dun force me ar..!"

"if u come to KL dun wan buy shirt then wat for u come here?"

"i dun wish to come here oso.. jus u all wan me to come only ma.."

once i hear tis sentences, i really wan to "扫他一巴掌"
parents gv us the money.. let u go n choose wat ever shirt.. how expensive oso nvm ar... but then u show us tis response... express out those XXXX things?
tat time.. totally no mood... he leave from there.. i continue shopping with my mum

at tat nite...
i calm down n talk to him...

"if u dun wan buy at KL, then when only u wan to buy? wanna buy at kuantan? is tat kuantan got such cheap shirt? is tat kuantan got such many choice?"

"dun wan buy then dun wan buy lar... dun have new shirt oso nvm de ma... jus u all every time oso force me to buy... i dun like to shopping oso...!"

"ok lar... u dun wan buy then dun wan buy lar... 你一世都不用买新衣的啦！buy at KL.. got so many choice..u can choose the most like one.. cheap.. can save some money.... u oso not understand tat?"

i throw these ques.. i hope he really cant understand..but he make me disappointed.

2nd day.. he say he dun wan follow us. he say he wan go to fren's house...
but my daddy not live in Kl... is so hard for my dad to fetch him go to his fren's house u know? my daddy reject tat... but if my bro din go to his fren house then wat can he do? stay at hotel n slep? then i begging my daddy to let him go...since my cousin at there... my cousin say can fetch him go but bek he ask my bro to go bek by his ownself... coz my cousin gonna go bek to his house...
again.. bcoz of my bro.. i argue with my dad

"daddy, let him go lar.. then bek u fetch lar..."

"dun ask me to fetch ar... later corner here corner there... go astray again.."

"then i fetch him bek lo..." (coz my cousin say very easy de.. the way to go n bek)

"dun wan dun wan.. u think u really expert in driving?"

"then ma let didi bek by taxi lar.."

"taxi.. later traffic jam... how much gonna pay oso dunno ar.."(daddy actually is worried bout my bro safety...)

"pay then pay lar.. otherwise.. he stay at here oso boring de ma.."

.......

my cousin fetch my bro go dy...
then my face n daddy's face like the coal... dark... moody again...
my dad sudd say next time dun ask ur bro come out dy. ask him oways stay in his room lar.. sit infront the computer lar..
i know my dad is totally angry at tat time...
then he leave away...
me continue my shopping with mum...
my mum n y.sis jus like orang tengah.. tam tam me... tam tam my dad...

til evening.. everything bcome normal... i play with my dad again.. n_n
then have a plan to genting for xmas countdown...
how was my y.bro action? sure u all can guess it...
he say dun wan..
ok fine.. tis time i really dun wan bother him dy.. let him stay alone at the hotel lar.. =p


today morning... my bro make me angry again...
long story.. conclusion... his nature..behavior... all change...bcome bad temper...
recently oways argue with my mum...but sometimes my mum oso lar...got her problem with the word tat she say out... but my bro.. haiz..


i dun like tis feeling..
b4 tis... my family communicate with warm...withour arguement...
i really miss the time...
i hate tis year..
but i know the same thing wil happen in next year..
i really hope tat the time can pass over faster n faster.. i hope tat my bro can bcome mature a bit... plz change ur attitude...

没有了歌声

今天我发现了一件令我感到透彻失望的事情。。。

以前的我在学校参加唱歌比赛都会拿奖的。。。
可是现在的我已经没有以前的嗓子，不知道怎样唱歌了。。。

这几天我一直在想，我以前唱歌其实好听吗？
还是因为没有更好的对手，所以我的歌声相比之下是比较好的。。。
还是我本来就是唱得很难听？？

近来，我一直都在家唱 K。。 可是唱来唱去就是不舒服。。。
上不到 key...
走音。。。
总之就是唱到很不爽。。。喉咙又没有那么的“清”。。
我问问了朋友的意见，他们告诉我用丹田唱，要拉高音可以尝试转一转点鼻音。。。
其实已经尝试了，可是失败。。。
一要唱高音的时候，我的喊叫声就来了，根本就不像唱歌。。。
真的很 geram 的啊！


今天和朋友去唱k 的时候，还发现了另一样东西，我的声音一点都不洪亮，其实这一点我很早就发现了，结果朋友给了我一个答案：“你还没有开声。。”
问题是到底要怎样才是开声？


这一些其实是命中注定你就是有好嗓子，还是要靠努力的？
还是不管你再怎样努力，你都不会比那些天生就有好嗓子的人来得好呢？


我很讨厌，我很讨厌我唱不到我想唱的歌，我很讨厌这种感觉。。。
万一我真的有一天唱得超级难听，那怎么办？
也许你会说，你比我唱的更难听，可是我真的很想唱得好听，唱的比一般人好。。。
可是。。。不知道何时才会有这个机会~~~

Form 6 - regret~~

recently i addicted in facebook ar....

no mood to study...

yday go my fren's bday party... erm..
From the beginning.. feel a bit bored de... but after tat really happy enjoyed!!
when i go bek dy very very late lu... jus left my y.brother not yet slep...
after i take a bathe then fall in sleep dy...

i though 2day morning i wan wake up early n do my revision.. but then failed...
i hate myself so lazy ar...
u know wat time only i wake up..? 12pm ar!!!
then u know wat is the 1st thing i do..?
not brush my teeth...
is sit infront my labtop n open my facebook...
so u know how terrible m i dy izit..?

i realy hope myself wont too addict in FB dy!!!
tuesday i have to sit for form 6 1st exam... duno i can score a good grade or not...
but hopefully dun FAILED!!
if not...
i cant imagine how sad wil I later...

i hv a question here..
i duno y n dun understand...
y i do the revision dy... do the exercise dy.. stil cant score in tat subject...
the result in my chemistry jus 35%
i really duno... once i get my paper tat time.. i really wan to cry dy.. but i din cry... coz i know stil got a lot of my fren get even less than me...
but y the others can score so high score.. i really dun understand.. mayb i really is a stupid gall.. although how i hardworking... it is useless...

wish for my exam in next week...~~

一个不知做了什么的早上

早上八点钟接到一通电话：
“喂，紫欣，要出来吃早餐吗？”

哈？躺在温暖的被窝中竟然要我爬起床吃早餐？

“我们要到你家门口了咯！”

什么？还要到我家门口了？我还没有刷牙洗脸哦！

“你现在去洗啦！ok？”

朋友车到了，我们就到了海边附近的一间餐厅吃早餐。。。

然后到海边散步，拍了几张傻照。。。现在就来看看这几张傻照啦！

结婚20周年纪念日

不是我结婚啦！！是爸爸妈咪结婚。。。
不是爸爸妈咪再婚。。。是爸爸妈咪结婚了20年。。所以就庆祝庆祝lu... n_n


爸爸妈咪讲不需要请多多人哦！所以我们就只是请了最要好的亲戚到我们家吃 steamboat...

然后就吹吹蜡烛，吃吃蛋糕，收收礼物。。。

我和弟妹准备了一份物轻情意重的礼物，虽然不昂贵，可是我们却花了很多心思在那份礼物身上的。。。

对了!! 就是这份礼物！那些人头呢是照片那样洗出来然后剪出来的，那些鸡也是画了再剪出来的，木板也是一样。。。最令我伤脑筋的就是那道彩虹。。。不是画到那个2 和 0 上下不平衡呢。。。就是画到左右不平衡。。。不过最后还是成功了。。。我最喜欢的地方就是妈咪的蛋巢。。。Hehe...

当我和弟妹送上这份礼物给爸爸妈咪的时候，他们真的很开心哦！第一个反应就是笑！还要是大笑那种的。。。wakaka 这样笑！！不过真的很好笑。。。wakaka...
相比那些用钱买的礼物，这份礼物是最为珍贵的了。。。

云顶旅程

很久没去云顶了。。。爸爸突然心血来潮说要带我们去游玩。。。


最后的决定就是到云顶。。。两天一夜。。。


很久没有跟家人去旅行了。。。感觉真的很开心。。。


妈咪准备了很多三文治，hotdog，chicken ball，还带了一些面包到云顶。。。有些人更夸张啊！竟然带饭煲上云顶叻。。。带饭煲做什么？当然是在房间里面煮饭咯！
可是那边的食物真的很贵啊！一粒普通粽子都要 RM7.50 啊！所以还是自己准备食物比较好。。。
当然，妈咪只是准备那几样食物是不够我们一家五口吃lu...
所以晚餐我们吃了 marrybrown... 关丹没得吃，就在云顶吃lu... keke



玩的过程真的很刺激，很好玩。。。
对一些人来说云顶并不是那么的好玩，可是我的旅程却非常开心。。。
难得能够跟家人一起玩，我看到你的开心，你看到我的欢笑，这种感觉真的真的很开心。。。






































































到了晚上，爸爸妈咪去了赌场。。。爸爸和妈咪不是赌鬼。。。只是到赌场玩玩下。。。最后赢了三百块。。。
而我和弟妹就在房里偷偷吃杯面！很爽哦！！！
妈咪跟我讲啊！赌场里面那些 “老AUNTY” 跟 “老UNCLE” 真的赌到头出烟啊！他们下注不是一百两百的。。。是一千两千啊！！！看到那些女人粗俗的行为真的要呕啊！脚又翘高高哦！烟又一直吸哦！aiyer..


第二天再上就 balik rumah lu....最开心的就是我拥有一支 cute cute 的海豚。。。是爸爸玩游戏赢回来的。。。hehe
这就是我的旅程~~ hehe

爸爸妈咪不在身边的第二天

今天早上一起床很失望。。。
没有妈咪为我准备的早餐。。。
haix...
我只好载我弟弟一起到某某餐厅吃早餐lu...


今天我很倒霉啊！四点半补 MUET...
可是我又不懂老师的家。。。
身边又没朋友跟我一起补同个老师的。。。
因为这是 senior 介绍的。。。
打电话给 senior ，他又没有接我电话，当时已经四点了。。。
结果兜兜转转才问到老师的家的地点。。。


补到整六点半左右，我还要赶着回家载我弟弟出来吃晚餐。。。
去到餐厅已经是七点了。。。

还要order,
还要等上菜，
还要在最短的时间内吃完，
然后还要以最快的速度载我弟弟回家。。。
因为赶着八点钟的补习。。。
当我要付钱的那一刻：发现我的钱包不见了。。。不见了...RM 100 啊!
都不懂飞去哪里liao ar....


可悲的是，我去到补习中心的时候已经是八点二十分了！！！
最经典的是: 今天没有补习！！！！！
我竟然一点印象也没有！！！
老师曾经说过在这两个星期不会有补习班...真是气死我啦！！！
害我赶到要生要死。。。


本来还想走到附近买点面包之类的平复自己得心情，怎知道。。。
走着走着，走到店门口了，它竟然挂着一个 notice!!
（本店休假从星期二至星期五）


我整个脑袋真的是一片空白啊！！今天都不懂踩到什么啊！


总而言之。。。如果爸妈有在身边，就肯定不会有这样的事情发生了。。。一切一定走的得PERFECTLY 顺利的。。。